One of the main reason I began writing on this public journal or “blog” was to…well…relieve stress? I think.
I am not sure I would call myself stressed out, but I just felt the need to be able to express my thoughts on a new platform. Both the husband and kids are wonderful support systems but like anybody, I need my away time.
Browsing the world wide web I found this video.
Ever since I have been rethinking my life. Should I be experiencing more things that I wanted to do in my life? Getting married early in life to my husband and having a family was easily the best thing to ever occur to me. But I have to wonder, what did I miss out on? Seeing the landscapes and amazing views in the video almost made burst into tears. Knowing that–most likely– I would never get to experience even ten percent of it.
It is almost like my life has fell perfectly into the slot of the depressed housewife in a movie drama. Only with no depression or alcohol abuse of course. These last few years have made me really sympathize with that perspective immensely. Fighting internally on whether my thoughts are selfish or not selfish enough.
Luckily our family is relatively financially stable, and we do get vacation time. But that usually entails Disneyland or another relatively close destination. I want to go far, very far. To places like Venice, Thailand, and the Caribbean. Somewhere with no worrying, no stress, no responsibilities.
The husband seems to relieve his problems through video games (ridiculous I know) and television. I wish it was that simple for me, but I guess I really am high maintenance. I want something more, something different to look back on for the rest of my adult life.
I started thinking, if I do this I don’t want it to be a once every 3 years kind of thing. I want to experience the world around 2 times a year. At the same time I realize that this is expensive and will add up quickly for my hardworking spouse. So I began looking in to videos that had a cheap alternative like this one.
It really is amazing how diverse and beautiful the different parts of the United States are. Sure nothing really beats the experience of going all the way across the Atlantic, but if I can do this more often than it is worth it. Hawaii and the national parks are really the places that intrigue me the most. The pictures shown of the different landscapes and oceans really make you feel like you are in a different place. And I guess you really are in a way considering the United States is so big and the borders are just arbitrary lines. But still, experiences like this would be more than enough to satisfy my wants.
The last time I left the country was for my honeymoon that feels like a long time ago. So maybe sprinkling in a few across the border trips wouldn’t hurt.